yesterday, i had a dream that i forgot to return my library books (3 calculus books) which means $$$ fines. and yes.. it was true..i REALLY did forget to return my library books..and in my sleep..i woke up and said..okay LOIS..u r going to return your library books tomorrow morning..and guess what lois does..she forgets ^___^ untill sissy finds books taht were on the table for the longest.."lois when are your library books due?"..HAHAHAH and i laughed. yes i am being very random. i like my randomness.
dreams can also mean another thing =) what my blog is called ---dream--- yah man..it's all i do..firguratively and literally =) ytes..i dream crazily while i sleep..mb it'scuz i love my sleep..it's soo yummmmmy =p yum. but alsol..dreaminggggg can mean something different =) if u go to www.dictionary.com you will see their are many definions of teh word dream (n.). haha
dream (n.)
1. A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
2. A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration.
these two definitions are things i did during my entire summer. dreamed crazily about crazy things in my sleep and dreamed about my future. dreaming is so wonderful and healthy..bc wen you are motivated, you are able to accomplish your dreams =) it's teh' best feeling..wen your dreams come true. isn't that a common phrase? Yes. haha..i fee l like i am giving a lecture..but today's topic is dreaming. i only have 1 more weeek to blog which is not all that cool...next sat i am quitting..so yes. dreaming about somethign else is good ^___^ haha..do i make sense? no..cuz i am dreaming. haha...rite now..my dream is to go to university and have fun. i wish i could skip grd 12..that's my gorgeous dream..which will fail to come true. but it's okay =) i'm almost there. go to university and be free from everything =) i can live an independent life w/ making my own decisions..which i do but i want to be freeeee from my high school life. grd 11 was full of trials and departure of starting my new life. i feel like i broke away from my barriers and released them in the air to go my own way. but sometimes..i still feel that childhood pain that doestn' go away. i miss ppl. but i cna't return cuz i 'm scared. it's like a dream. a child hood dream that is not erasing away from my memories. it's jsut stuck there and ther'es no going back. i can't. i already made great mistakes that will be stuck ..but hopefully i will be courageous enough one day to return to the past..and fix things up =) things that no one knows but me. i want to take taht leap at this moment..but i just can't bc of my personality. i just can't. that tangle in my lifee can no longer be released of freedom cuz it's too late. reality is moving swiftly and i can just go on with life. and i think taht's what i will do. mb i shud ignore the past and just leave it alone. but i miss it tremendously. i can't. yes. today is a saturdaty at 1:03 and i am talking about my life. which is so weird. it relaxes me. gives me an overview of life. and how i'm doing. rite now..i dunno.. i feel so happy outside..but inside i dunno who i truly am. i just miss everythign and i know this problem of mine will get worse wen i move on to university. but mb not =-) we will see.. in grd 12..i mustt not losee more ppl and not be selfish to myself..bcc life is more than that. i'ts about TRUE friendships where everyone jions together and become a happy family =) where there are no tearsss..but tha tis impossible until the lord calls =) yha..im' very excited for thattt! but am i ready? i dunno..i think im' never ready for ANYTHING..haha..taht i s SOO tue..i am NEVER READY FOR ANYTHING...wow..i just realizedt aht at this moment..i am never ready for tests/trials/ and just plain ol life. i dunno. it's fun to talk about this stuff. i dunno wha tim' taling about though..its' okay..ti's relieving myself =) removing thoughts that were trapped in my mind and it's DREAMM..yesss..dreaming is good. rite now i feel like i am at a stage of dreaming. so today i felt like blogging. i'm going to keep dreaming in grd 12 and never lose hope. i'm determiend to make my sci-fri club, i'm determined to get a 90% for every course, i'm determined to never lose my purpose of life - God, i'm determined to stay strong and healthy and NEVER GIVE UP, i'm determined to love my family and friends eternally. my dreams are overflowing and it'll always. my dreams will never fail.. *unlike my plans =(
i like dreaming about things that aren't possible. bc u know why? i will make it possible!
posted by lois @ 12:52 PM
